now i want to love her. i want to believe in appearances. i want her, i want someone, something, cue the violin and i will get violent. ok? :) i hold onto her and i can't feel into the realness anymore. i am.. hopefully going through a bad phase and will come back to humanity soon. last night trying to believe, in her, i saw a falling star, but i don't think it was because it was too fast, too big and bright, i will have to look it up on youtube and see if that is the normal thing, or if i saw another ufo, or a meteor.
the fabric begins to tear
and i don't really care