Witz:
I like you. You are a courageous guy with good ideas.
How Long Can I Go On This Way?
You said: "But you know, I am somehow worried about your ongoing posting frenzy this last week. How long can you go on in this way? I know these days are really important for you americans., even historical. But I'm afraid you could 'burn out' if you continue to spread your kundu all over the place. Don't forget to care about yourself. Regenerate. Go for a walk. Eat. Sleep. Meditate. Find your center again."
Yes, I understand. It may seem like I am Jack Kerouac stoked on the frenzy of benzedrine cranking out reams of streams of consciousness. That kind of productivity cannot be sustained, right? I agree with you that is no way to live.
And trust me, I am not on drugs.
I just retired from the U.S. Navy. One of the beautiful things about military service in America is that you only have to serve 20 years and you get a healthy pension for life with full health care benefits.
So, I am in my mid-40s with all of the time in the world and more money than I need. And a computer.
When I retired I promised myself that I would do everything that I have been putting off. Navy life is hard - it really demands full time service and you are constantly moving around, no home, living in cubicles on a ship, etc. (I guess that is why they let you retire after 20 years, most people are at the end of their rope by them.) You tend to accumulate inspirations but have no time to act on them.
So, in addition to having a great time sharing valuable ideas with people like yourself in the community forum, I am also finishing a novel (am not happy with it right now though), composing music, and I just published a book on the Neapolitan language (which is the first book ever written providing English translations of authentic Napulitano text materials - I am getting a lot of positive feedback from the Italian-American community thanking me for helping them regain their heritage. By the way, if you speak German, you may be interested in a 2nd edition I also published with German and English translations. )
I feel really balanced and am devoting time to other projects as well, which include improving my yard, learning to draw, helping my children with their homework, trying to find new recipes to cut meat out of our family diet, and working with my aunt to assemble our family tree. (I did a bunch of research in Bratislava last year on that.)
Tell me: what are you doing these days? Where do you devote your best energies? You have an ILP?
My challenge to anyone who may be reading this is: what will you regret not having done or tried? Have you ever thought of writing a novel? Sit down and just produce 5 pages today and 5 pages tomorrow and then look at what you have after a month. If it is garbage, ask yourself why. Study a good writer and ask, "what are they doing that I am not doing?" You will make improvements every time. And you will find velleities all over that need to be cut out.
To all of the Integral friends out there, I challenge you to write something. And if you don't know how to self-publish, check out www.lulu.com - you can send your Word file on Monday, and have your book in hard cover form in your hands the following Monday! So, give it a try. The worst thing that will happen is that you realize you need a lot more study and discipline before you can create something good. The best thing that can happen is that you will actually create something stunning and surprise yourself (and make some money).
You know, almost everyone likes music. But how many people have tried to put what is in their heart into musical form? It is actually quite easy to learn the fundamentals of chord theory. Most people can get it in a week and start writing songs. I'll bet there is someone in the Integral community who has a bunch of great songs inside of them that need to get written. Again, you may find that you need more discipline, or, you may create something absolutely cool right now.
On the physical side, I use yoga mainly to keep my spine healthy, and head stands to flood my brain with oxygenated blood. I don't eat junk food or smoke. I do love red wine however. But when I drink, it definitely cuts into my endurance. So, I often open a bottle of burgundy and let half of it go bad.
So, I appreciate your comments about balance. They were good comments. I am just finding that life is good and writing is fun and so are a whole lot of other things. And the absolutely weird thing is, when you create, it brings more balance and relaxation into your life than when you try to assimilate the creations of others.
Now, turning to the heart of the issue.
On Arrogance
In your mind, I was arrogant and rude to BakerBunny, right?
I'll admit, I was slightly harsh. And I can completely understand your response. At face value, I read way too much into it, right?
I would do the same thing again. And I will.
Here is what happened. So we have a common frame of reference.
Muggur asked a very legitimate and sincere question about the Falk book and the issue of cults as related to Integral Institute. It was a very relevant topic to raise.
I tried to provide my sincere ideas in response. I expected others to help the discussion with valuable comments.
BakerBunny then entered the thread and did the following:
s/he made a comment that was nearly meaningless, to wit:
"When i find similar themes in more than a few places, I tend to give the holon, or map in this case, more consideration."
s/he then thought to re-direct the conversation to you and said:
"Witz, I love the Love Guru, and i am quite fond of his yoga poses, i practice daily the posture illustrated central bottom."
S/he then checked out by saying:
Love ta "yoose all."
The easiest thing in the world would be to ignore BakerBunny. The comments were not helpful in developing the thread of Muggur's issue.
I responded:
BakerBunny:
I thought we were talking about Falk's critique of I-I as a cult.
Do you have any thoughts on that? Have you read Falk's critique?
And what in the blooming heck are you talking about when you say that when you find similar themes in more than a few places, you tend to give the holon, or the map in this case, more consideration?
Common courtesy dictates that you not breeze in and toss off an inane comment and the segue into a non sequitur followed by a something I know not what it is.
So, what do you think of what I wrote to Muggur?
I see way too many people in the Integral forums who are sloppy and lazy. I know, you must be fired to code red right now hearing that, right?
Sloppy means that they do not organize their thoughts. They don't even try to create meaningful text that represents anything more than their passing mood. Their ideas and terms are often flabby, loose, vague, and lacking in any referential content. "E.g. giving the holon more consideration."
I do not have a problem if a retarded child cannot read or write and s/he writes a poem that is just barely beyond nonsense. S/he has done the best given their ability. I would hug that child.
But when fully functioning adults are too goddamned sloppy to share their thoughts in a coherent way, that is fine too. As long as they respect the arena or circle in which others are sincerely and honestly trying to contribute.
I want to insist that everyone at least try!! It doesn't have to be brilliant. But at least do your best!
BakerBunny basically said, "I don't even have time to waste on this topic. Hey, Witz, wanna go grab a pizza? What's your favorite topping? I really like Dominoes."
Each of us has a sense of how to use words in an accurate way to make meaningful statements. And we also have a sense of how we can create ambiguities and even insinuate that we are speaking in a meaningful code.
The whole hip hop phenomenon and "love to yoose all" epidemic is founded on laziness and insinuation. Code words are layered on code words and the uninitiated are bullied into wondering "am I outside of the core?" Why do I not know what they are talking about? Generally, they are talking about nothing. The words are used in a sloppy, insinuational way to evoke generalized moods.
America is drowning in bullshit, Witz! Half of our youth cannot even locate Europe on a map!! They are getting away with talking like 50cent and they are losing the ability to focus on an idea for 2 minutes. Can you believe this? They have the tools, they are capable, but no one is insisting that they do the work, take the time to hone the skills. We tolerate it and encourage it even.
There are absolutely wonderful, high level things that emerge when you discipline yourself and really try to do your best! And the Integral vision is about restoring recognition of the hierarchical wonders of existence. Which is to say, "there is something more valuable at a higher level when words are employed in an organized way through dialogue compared to when words are thrown around with no discipline or attempt to convey or develop an idea."
I do not know BakerBunny. But when s/he made an inane comment about finding "similar themes" and giving the "holon, or the map" more consideration, I thought that s/he could benefit from being reminded that:
- in a cyber forum, the most precious quality is focus. It is too easy to jump into a thread and distract it with nonsense or irrelevant comments.
But, the deeper issue is this: when people are trying their best to wrestle with an idea, it is massively rude to jump in and divert the conversation to a dialogue about something completely unrelated.
You know, this is a favorite power politics ploy. You listen while people share their energy and thoughts and then during a lull, you breeze in with a quick line that dismisses the relevancy of everything that has been said, and you change the subject, starting up a one-on-one exchange with one party about a completely unrelated subject on a different level.
I found BakerBunny's post to be rude and lazy. And I think that there is enormous potential for the Integral community forum to be a treasure trove of interesting and useful ideas (sorry, I can't give you a massage, or play music for you, or dance for you using my keyboard - I can only orchestrate words in a string...). But it depends on everyone showing respect and focus and not bullshitting each other with idiotic comments that insinuate something deep is going on when what is really going is just laziness in spades.
Ralph Weidner is a prolific contributor and to me sounds like a really nice guy. But the other day, after I had shared idea after idea on the subject of "power" or "kuntu" as it is reflected in politics, he breezed in with an off-hand dismissive remark, "I don't take it seriously." What kind of shit is this? No courtesy of an explanation, no attempt to even identify what it is he doesn't take seriously, just a one-liner as he is breezing by? I found it to be lazy and I told him so. And to dismiss a developed idea with a one line comment that doesn't even try to meet the discussion in a meaningful way is flat out rude.
Call me a living incarnation of the shadow if you like. I will respond by saying "grow up and stop being a lazy ass, work with us here to make the community have a little more integrity and form. Let's cut the junk."
I suspect you are thinking, "this guy won't let go. He is a krank!" I can fully understand your wondering whether I am a rabid lunatic.
I am a very generous guy and I have what I believe to be an effective spiritual practice. I am doing my best to hit the different aspects of my ILP.
I also am convinced that within the realm of rational discourse, the world, and America in particular, is swimming in massive piles of bullshit. And it grows and grows because we are too lazy to insist on meaning and also ... because we are all politicians who dare not offend anyone.
Stand on your own feet, Witz. We don't need your alliances. Stop trying to win votes for an election that will never be held. We need your integrity and effort.
So, I see BakerBunny's post as a microcosmic exemplar of the above. And I am convinced that BakerBunny can understand. And the sun will come up tomorrow for him/her and life will be good. And ... I still have not gotten any kind of response to my questions. I think BakerBunny is capable of telling us what s/he thinks of Falk's piece, if she takes the time to locate and read it, but doesn't feel it is even worth trying.
And as soon as I send this, I am going to go have lunch. Maybe soup.
Ciao Witz. And thanks for sharing. Looking forward to hearing about what you are doing good and some kind of acknowledgement that you understand the healthy side of what I am ranting about.